Happy Heart

I'm not going to ramble on this time as long as usual... at least I hope.

I finally have an internship!! What a relief, it was starting to wear on me not knowing what I was going to be doing... but this week I had 2 interviews suddenly and both places wanted me! It would have been a hard decision to make, but meeting people sometimes makes things easier.  Roserock was really cool because they're office was on the WB lot, so I'd be able to wander around the lot (which I did after my interview hehe) and meet people, but it the lot was almost so big that it had kind of a lonely feeling. Plus the few people in the office seemed kind of boring... Personality really is everything, especially when you're going to be working in close parameters with someone, so after meeting with Ram Bergman's assistant (Ray) from Gordonstreet, it was kind of an easy decision.

Gordonstreet is a small independent production company that's know for a film called Brick.  I haven't seen a lot of independent films, but what I have seen I liked.  At first, I kind of had in my mind that I would really like to work for a studio, but now I'm not so sure...  I guess I kind of had this idea that working in a studio, I would be able to have a bigger impact because those people are hard to work with. "those people"... the ones that are all about the business, don't give a rat's ass about people, shmooze their way to the top, rip people to shreds... but really not everyone is like that.  And I'm starting to think, maybe God actually has me on this path to bless me, meaning maybe I don't have to put up with scummy people to make a difference in the world and shine the light.  Maybe I can make just as much of a difference working in an office where everyone actually respects each other and treats each other with dignity.  And maybe I don't have to worry about making the "right" choice for once, because either way God is going to do something amazing.  It's strange to finally come to a point in the road where you have a choice when all you're life you thought there was only one "correct" path.

So after talking to Ray, the choice I was going to make seemed kind of simple. Why wouldn't I want to work with someone who is down to earth, super genuine, and actually interested in what I want to do and get out of an internship? I don't know necessarily what I'm going to get out of it career wise, but I'm starting to finally believe it's about more than what you do as a career, it's about the people that you meet along the way.  So combining all that information, I'm thinking that I may or may not get my big break into the career of my dreams through this internship, but I will gain a happy heart by having a mentor who wants to see me do all that I want to do and is willing to guide me along the way.  In the end, I think that's really what I need anyways.  :)